17th November 2009

17th November 2009                                    Tuesday

今天的我特别特别想念你。这几天都是常在梦里遇见你。回忆起以前你与我的生活，真的真的过得很开心。

你与我之间的认识（莫名其妙地吵架）

载我放学（甲洞火车站）

两人的晚餐（肉骨茶）

我们在一起（一封讯息）
第一份最贵的礼物 （Iphone - AD799）

第一次拍拖的地方（Cheras）

第一次牵手、第一次的吻（房间）

彼此的第一次（14th October 2005）

第一次收到的礼物（一束红玫瑰花）

第一次送的礼物（自做的星星瓶子）
（被我打破了）

第一次的国庆日（Cameron Highlands）

第一次的倒数（One Utama）

第一次的情人节（Port Dickson）

第一次的农历新年 ( Cameron Highlands )

第一次的生日礼物（一束维尼熊的玫瑰花，一对白金小钻石戒指和我最爱的 Marble Cheese）

第一次的拍拖周年（一天白金水晶手链）

第一次离开家人与朋友（到墨尔本工作）

第一次的注册（墨尔本 14th June 2009）

第一次的小度蜜月（ Mount Buller @ Melbourne）

第一个的小孩（女儿 Kathryn Hew Kye Lyn - 25th October 2009 ）

而你，是我一生中最爱的

虽然这都不算什么起眼的事，但对我来说，富有很多意义！毕生难忘！

小女儿也就快摆满月了，很可惜你不在身边。我知道你为了我们以后的生活，才被逼一人流浪在那。做完月子后，我会尽快找工作，让您能够尽快地回来！

11th November 2009

11th November 2009                 Wednesday

I'd call hubby today, we chat happily, didn't arguing.

I asked hubby whether wanna buy MyVi with limited edition or the normal one. Edition with leather seat, alloy rim's, side skirttings and others. Just more around 2-3 thousand. Hubby said buy the limited edition. He call me to call him when wanna get the car, see whether he got any more money to pay for the loan anot.

I know hubby love me so much, and I love him so much too =)
Both of us love baby soo soo soo muchie ~

10th November 2009

10th November 2009     Tuesday

Unhappy day ~

Already two days hubby didn't call to me .. Did he still angry me? Or he really don't wanna call me again as what Lee Yee told me? Hubby still love me?
Why? Why? Till now you still don't understand my feeling?

I'm not don't want stayed your house, but I'm really not habit on there. This not mean that I force you to back, just told you how my feel at there only! I'm not don't like your parents, I didn't argue with them .. Just I really felt so stress there, felt nervous and stress when your sister carry baby downstairs. She don't know how to care baby.

Few things that she do had make me so scare that baby will hurt when together with her.

1) I heard that she said wanna help baby cut finger nails, hubby, baby still so small, can't cut finger nails now, it will easy blooding.

2) When baby cry, she straight away take a bottle of water and put it into baby's mouth, but that time baby was sleeping 90 degree straight on the bed, hubby, it will let the water easy to flow into baby's lungs, if serius, baby will die.

3) That day your sister wanna carry baby, her hand not enough long, then she straight away pull baby's hand, hubby, this will easy let baby's hand get broke.

Hubby, I know your sister love baby girl but I can't accept her together with baby! Everytime when she carry baby downstairs, I sure will sit in front of the door and listen what she did to baby. I scare baby get hurt. The things that your sister dunno how to do also didn't ask. She carry baby downstairs and call me to sleep first, how dare I will fall asleep when baby still at downstairs?

Everyone ask me why don't straight away said your sister or scold her, they say that my own baby! How dare I said her? If I said already, sure she don't like me then. Why I don't told you? Because I don't want because of me both of you always argue, I don't want make your family like that! But you angry me, why everything also didn't told you, not everything can settle easily. And sometimes if problem can settle just keep it, no need make troublesome. Because I think this matter had over, so I don't want to told you, it will make you trouble. I didn't argue with them, really! Your parents treat me very well too =)

Hubby, please forgive me ... I love you so much ..!!

Waiting your call ~

8th November 2009

8th November 2009 Monday

Many things happened on this few days ..?? I don't think so .. But in my mind like ......... >.<

Why I'll changed like that ..? I scare people carry my baby away from my sight, I felt so uncomfortable for that! Dunno what they'll did to her / Dunno how they carry her / Dunno how they feed her / Dunno where they put her to sleep at ..??

I'm scolded someone on facebook, you saw that, but I'm not mention you or your mum .. Not to be so worry that, I'm live ok with them, just felt abit stranger now because you not there, I'm not dare to speak to them, not dare to ask anything, not dare to told your sister not to do this to my baby .. I know that my baby, I should told her not to but scare she won't like, I care baby, but I also care how your family feeling ... That's why I didn't told you everything, not good to be "black face" next time .. It's over, everything will be fine ..

I didn't call you back now already, is you the one who misunderstood what I told you .. I just want to let you know that I'm not habit to live there ... Because I'm still not so close with your family! But you really don't understand me, you thought I go home live is wanna force you to come back, you're wrong! Although I always call you to come back, but not this time, I'm not using this to force you back .. Please don't always think me like that ..!

You said that I didn't stand on your side and think it for you, I got, I know you do this is because of us, you wanna give us a best future, I know, I really know it .. I know you love us .. We love you too .. So sorry hubby, I'm felt so sorry ..!

I can afford it, you don't worry us .. Just becareful at there ya .. I didn't scold you, I just love you only .. I hope you'll see this message here!

I know you won't leave baby, cause you really love her, but I know maybe you'll leave me one day, I really scare you'll don't want me one day ..

If this day will come, I really hope it will stop automatically to let the time stop at the moment when we're happy together! Or the day after I'd die ..! My heart/love for you will never change.

25th October 2009

25th November 2009 Sunday

God Bless Day ~

She's still in my stomach .. Almost 10 months

半夜睡觉到一半, 感觉肚子乖乖地, 有点肚子疼, 想要大便! 去厕所蹲蹲, 好不容易把大便大完, 回房继续睡, 又感觉好像有点来红, 奇怪, 难道要生了吗?

害怕又紧张的我立刻打电话给妈妈, 问个清楚! 达到正确地答案后, 二哥就载我到医院去。一到达医院门口，羊水就破了，流个不停，但肚子一点也不痛。被带进产房，护士检查完毕后，就立刻打电话给医生。医生说小孩已经在里面大便了，很危险要立刻开刀把小孩取出，因为我的骨还没开，不能自然生！

长得那么大，都没有尝试过开刀的滋味，心里有点怕，好想哭出来，丈夫未能在身边陪伴，确实是有点失望，可是还得把小孩生出啊！我自己签上了名字，然后就被推进手术室，脑海里都怕的空白了，躺在床上，看着一盏一盏的灯，直到看到手术房，心里紧张得很。

下身的衣服被打开，麻醉医生帮我打第一支麻醉药，感觉不痛但能感觉到药物随着血流入，有点麻麻地，再打第二针，同样地感觉，最后一针了！下半身已经开始没自觉了，双脚都抬不起来。

好了，医生说要开始了，我手握拳头，冒着冷汗，真怕麻醉药没效。哦，自己错了，虽然能感觉到医生为我动的每一步，但一点也没感觉，不到几分钟，就听见女儿的哭声。眼见自己的女儿健健康康，中气十足地哭闹着，感触的眼泪不听使唤地流下。小孩被抱出去了，医生还在帮我缝针。然后把我推到病房里。

First Day of Baby Kathryn

人人都说开刀后会比自然生后来得痛，错咯，真的一点也没自觉。躺在床上，下半生不能动，这能劳累护士们，真的爽，有人照顾，哈哈！开刀后的这几天，胃口大变，吃什么都感觉想呕！又累！脸色苍白导想僵尸。

第二天，开始慢慢有自觉，能自己下床了。下床后第一时间当然去看看自己的宝贝那！多么可爱！