8th November 2009

8th November 2009 Monday

Many things happened on this few days ..?? I don't think so .. But in my mind like ......... >.<

Why I'll changed like that ..? I scare people carry my baby away from my sight, I felt so uncomfortable for that! Dunno what they'll did to her / Dunno how they carry her / Dunno how they feed her / Dunno where they put her to sleep at ..??

I'm scolded someone on facebook, you saw that, but I'm not mention you or your mum .. Not to be so worry that, I'm live ok with them, just felt abit stranger now because you not there, I'm not dare to speak to them, not dare to ask anything, not dare to told your sister not to do this to my baby .. I know that my baby, I should told her not to but scare she won't like, I care baby, but I also care how your family feeling ... That's why I didn't told you everything, not good to be "black face" next time .. It's over, everything will be fine ..

I didn't call you back now already, is you the one who misunderstood what I told you .. I just want to let you know that I'm not habit to live there ... Because I'm still not so close with your family! But you really don't understand me, you thought I go home live is wanna force you to come back, you're wrong! Although I always call you to come back, but not this time, I'm not using this to force you back .. Please don't always think me like that ..!

You said that I didn't stand on your side and think it for you, I got, I know you do this is because of us, you wanna give us a best future, I know, I really know it .. I know you love us .. We love you too .. So sorry hubby, I'm felt so sorry ..!

I can afford it, you don't worry us .. Just becareful at there ya .. I didn't scold you, I just love you only .. I hope you'll see this message here!

I know you won't leave baby, cause you really love her, but I know maybe you'll leave me one day, I really scare you'll don't want me one day ..

If this day will come, I really hope it will stop automatically to let the time stop at the moment when we're happy together! Or the day after I'd die ..! My heart/love for you will never change.